Selfish- Reliance

Feb 07
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I’ve shared a room for so long, I’m not used to going to sleep and waking up alone. Ironic when i was desiring my privacy so much.

Jan 17
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Drunk men have too much confidence. Creepers.

Drunk men have too much confidence. Creepers.

Dec 29
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I need this for my future house. I love turquoise furniture. 

I need this for my future house. I love turquoise furniture. 

Dec 20
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gettinailed: Red heart tips Experimenting with this

gettinailed:

Red heart tips

Experimenting with this

Dec 05
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Saturday Night

I used to live life fast and hard.

Maybe not always hard but most definielty fast. Although I will not really concur with the cliche of living fast and dying young, iwill assume a life of spuratic quickness, calm mellow lazy moments holding comforts up to the sun to see the sparkle and glimmer.

Right now i feel on the sad side of near death as i hover like some not quite yet deflated balloon. I think school will help fill that void. maybe a poetry club and doing something great. I want to start and animal fund. help save some of them. spend my time searching for homes. Im not quite sure how to do it though. or really exactly what i want to do.

I need to get out of my self destructive habits of laziness. Im going to start thinking about how i can save the animals….

I’m so bored I could cry. My love is off at his friends house. while i am here being with my one true love, meshi. No living fast for tonight. just sleeping next to something soft, lazy and full of wonder. like a child that will never grow up.

I guess its a good saturday night.

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I found this dog tshirt in my bfs/ his little brothers/ my room. Idk why they had it. But it was MADE for Meshi.

I found this dog tshirt in my bfs/ his little brothers/ my room. Idk why they had it. But it was MADE for Meshi.

Oct 31
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i remember

when i cried next to someone over someone else.

It was because i was in love with that person i thought i had lost.

and always would be.

And now i have sat next to someone crying. and i know its because he loves someone and always will. I can never compete with that.

Oct 26
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 the U.S. Marines have taken him away. He has always wanted to do this and I am so proud of him. I’m sad we didnt get to really say goodbye to each other. Its my fault i suppose. I either adore him or ignore him. And he does the same with me. I remember when he stopped talking to me. Would ignore me completely because he was upset that he was left with nothing. I would cry for him. I had a boyfriend whom i loved deeply, but i would cry for James, missing him so much it was unbearable. I would beg him to call me back or talk to me. he never did. Until we saw each other randomly and decided to hang out, and it was like no time had passed. He was my best friend. I’ve told him more then I’ve told any man about myself. The greates part is that it was without fear of being judged or disliked. Because James always likes me, and he always feels me. Its too bad that he can be here for so long and i dont hang out with him, but as soon as he’s gone I miss him like crazy. Selfishness. I hope the distance and time does not make us strangers 4 years down the road.

 the U.S. Marines have taken him away. He has always wanted to do this and I am so proud of him. I’m sad we didnt get to really say goodbye to each other. Its my fault i suppose. I either adore him or ignore him. And he does the same with me. I remember when he stopped talking to me. Would ignore me completely because he was upset that he was left with nothing. I would cry for him. I had a boyfriend whom i loved deeply, but i would cry for James, missing him so much it was unbearable. I would beg him to call me back or talk to me. he never did. Until we saw each other randomly and decided to hang out, and it was like no time had passed. He was my best friend. I’ve told him more then I’ve told any man about myself. The greates part is that it was without fear of being judged or disliked. Because James always likes me, and he always feels me. Its too bad that he can be here for so long and i dont hang out with him, but as soon as he’s gone I miss him like crazy. Selfishness.

I hope the distance and time does not make us strangers 4 years down the road.

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(via spacepasta, letsbealovefilm-deactivated2010)

(via spacepasta, letsbealovefilm-deactivated2010)

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I want to watch when harry met sally. Its basically about the growth of this relationship. First from hating each other, to friends to accidental lovers to soulmates. And its about how girls and guys cant be friends. Although I believe they can, because i have guy friends I would never feel romantically about or get physical with, although it has happened before and been completely destructive. It reminds me of James.

I want to watch when harry met sally. Its basically about the growth of this relationship. First from hating each other, to friends to accidental lovers to soulmates. And its about how girls and guys cant be friends. Although I believe they can, because i have guy friends I would never feel romantically about or get physical with, although it has happened before and been completely destructive.

It reminds me of James.